I MISS HIM…
My vivid childhood memory of him was when I was 5 years old. My mom and I were in a big boat going home to our town. Our boat was getting ready to embark when this small boat failed to stop on time and crash on the rear of the boat we were in. Screaming flooded the air as terrified passengers ran around in fear. A loud crash and the boat shook so hard and here he is running towards us with his face wrinkled in utter concern. I saw that his head hit the boat’s ceiling , but he did not mind it… he just huddled me and my mom into his arms- a protective arm…
Years later, I only see him once every year all as I was growing up. He had to work in another island and eventually work abroad. My mom said, “ For us to have better life and for us to be able to go to college….” SACRIFICES of being far from his family and loyalty to my mom as I wait for the mailman to bring us that weekly letter. In that letter, the content was almost a redundant but it meant so much to us. It is similar to a weekly treat that surely comes as promised – my memory of loyalty.
He had only one month vacation and then he will leave again. I see my mom shed tears and me, I did not understand why mom was crying . I had mixed emotions which I did not understand- all I know is he got to earn money for us to have a good life… In those vacations, Dad will garden, one time he decided to plant Bonsai and they were beautiful: I remember watching them in awe . He talks and I listen . He will cook and I savor every bits of it. I look up to him and whatever he does, he succeeds… One time, he went fishing and he got these small fishes and we ate them… he cooked eels and I thought that it was the most delicious food ever…Here is my dad , and he never does wrong, his working hands, a Midas touch.
Now, I have a family on my own, we live far from my parents, and I feel how my parents feel being far from each other, I understand now why, as parents, have to make sacrifices to our children. That mixe d feeling I felt when dad go back to work abroad has now a name. It was called SACRIFICIAL LOVE- you forget yourself for the good of the other…
It is Father’s day and I have not said this enough to my dad, I LOVE YOU, PAPA…Here is a fish delicacy we can share together when we see each other again…
- 3 pcs fish fillet
- 3 tbsps sesame oil
- 3 tbsps chopped onion
- 2 inches of ginger, freshly grind
- ¼ cup traditional bread crumbs
- 1 lemon sliced
- dash of pepper
- salt to season
- Put fish fillet in the tin foil. Sprinkle the traditional breadcrumbs on top of the fish fillet. Add the sliced lemon, onion and grounded fresh ginger. Season with pepper and small amount of salt. Sprinkle a generouse amount of Sesame Oil. Bake for 15 to 18 minutes at preheated 350 C ove. Add in more salt if needed.
- NOTE: If you do not have an oven, you can steam the fish 🙂