I was called back and offered a job. How was that possible? It was a bad interview. No, it was a disaster. My skills were not even that good. I guess the manager liked me … I was very excited and I was ready to make a big impression. I was ready. The first day, nobody’s in the department yet but her, Dianne and him, Randy. As I bubbly said hi, they responded with a gaze and a cold shrug. I know right then and there, that everything will not be alright.
That is how everything went down for me in that job. As I got to meet the rest of the department, I knew that I did not belong and I knew that I will be left by my own… to swim in this furnace of hell called my “dream job…”
And the downward slope continued. The department’s expectations of me were too high that I cannot keep up. All the time, I got swipe with insults from Randy and a mocking look from Dianne. I came home emotionally drained and physically exhausted. Months went by and I became paranoid. I was pretty sure that they were talking about me; no. I was certain.I can hear the loud whispers about their criticism. Whenever I turn around, I knew that they were laughing at me… I am now convinced that I am crazy. I was young and fresh, how come they did not understand me… how come they did not give me a chance to blossom? Why are they so mean when I am so nice… Why?
I did not last in that job. I was just too weak. I was just too kind, and I was just not capable enough. Even though I lost that job, I took out the biggest lesson from that experience. – DIANNE AND RANDY.
Years passed by and I am now in the “peak” of my career and I credit Dianne and Randy‘s “MEAN-NESS” for it. Because of them, I’ve learned that no matter how charming and friendly I am, it does not make up for my lack of skills; so currently, I am learning skills in every opportunity that I can get.I’ve learned that great job skills will make me get respected in the work place. I also became humble during learning curve and I use it as an opportunity to ask meaningful and sometimes stupid questions.
Whenever I get discourage at work, a flash of Dianne and Randy’s face make me settle down and their flashbacks make me focus on doing better next time because I am not letting bullies bring me down all over again. I chuckle, “Huh! I became stronger because of them.” Aside from making me thick skinned, I vowed never ever to gossip in the work place. Those little whispers and smirks had cut me deep. I became a wreck. Looking back, I vowed not to do that with anybody (well, except now).
So why am I sharing this painful experience of mine in front of this Grilled Salmon? It just happened that as I was preparing this Salmon, a thought of those two came out of the blue. It is when I came home from a job which is I am totally content and where I am doing well. Would I be a good worker as I am right now if I have n’t met those bullies? They say one’s greatest adversity is one’s greatest opportunity… In my case, my adversity were Dianne and Randy and they have brought opportunity to better myself… how about you, what is you great adversity?